Thursday, February 10, 2005


That's pretty much all I have to say about how I feel today.

P.S. Sorry, Em. I'm not sure if that's one of those words that make you shudder!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

She's Growing Up

Last night, I got a glimpse into my daughter's future. She stayed the night last night with her grandparents. My husband is sick, and I'm still under the weather from last week, so it seemed like a good idea. She was excited to go, and her "grammy" was excited to have her.

It was definitely quieter in the house without her. But when I passed by her empty room, with her bed still made up, it made me sad. I missed her. She's stayed the night at her grandparents before, but it was usually when my husband and I went out of town. Being at home without her seemed strange.

And I started thinking about when she gets older, and starts going to school, meeting new friends and having slumber parties at other friends' houses. Will I still feel that same sense of emptiness? Probably.

Today, when she gets home, I want her to know how much she was missed, how much she means to me, how I feel so lucky that she's my daughter. I want her to know all of these things before time passes and she's all grown up and leaving the house for good. Will I look back then and wish that I was still going through the temper tantrums of the terrible twos? I wonder.